You're killing me

I promise,
those days when I didn't know,
I promise I could've killed you,
killed you for making me wait,
for driving me crazy,
for making me catch my breath,
for making my heart race.

I promise I could've killed you,
killed you for making my days seem long,
for having you in every part of my brain,
for making me shake like a leaf,
for making my heart beat faster and faster.

Now, all my thoughts of wanting to kill you
for doing all of this is gone,
like the wind blows away the leaf I once was.

I remember the eyes,
the curly dark hair,
your face,
I couldn't kill you ever if I wanted,

cause that'd be suicide...